Some mornings, my brain wakes up before my body does. Thoughts stack on top of each other—unfinished tasks, worries, memories, ideas that refuse to wait their turn. For a neurodivergent mind, internal talk isn’t a gentle hum; it’s a crowded room where everyone is speaking at once. And when that happens, prayer can feel impossible.

I’ve spent years thinking I needed to quiet my mind before coming to God. That prayer only works after the noise settles. That God prefers calm, focused, put-together thoughts. But life and my brain don’t work that way.

Jesus tells us something very different.

“But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen.”
—Matthew 6:6 (NIV)

I used to read this as instructions for silence. Now I read it as permission for privacy. This verse doesn’t say wait until your thoughts are orderly. It says come anyway. Close the door on performance. Step away from the noise of expectations. Be honest about what’s happening inside.

When my mind is overstimulated, I don’t try to fix it before praying. I bring the noise with me. I sit quietly, not to empty my thoughts, but to acknowledge them without chasing every one. Sometimes my prayer is as simple as: God, I need Your wisdom right now. Not clarity. Not answers. Wisdom to move through the noise without being consumed by it.

That’s the process Matthew 6:6 gives me:

• Step away
• Close the door
• Speak honestly
• Ask for God’s wisdom

DMX’s “Lord Give Me a Sign” captures this tension perfectly. The song isn’t polished or quiet. It’s raw, desperate, and loud, just like my inner world on hard days. DMX doesn’t wait until he’s calm to cry out to God. He calls out in the middle of confusion, pain, and urgency. That honesty reminds me that God is not intimidated by mental noise or emotional intensity.

God doesn’t speak only after the thoughts stop racing. He speaks within the racing thoughts. He meets us in the mess, not after we clean it up.

Silent prayer, for me, isn’t about silence in my head. It’s about stillness in my posture, choosing to pause, to sit with God, and to trust that He hears me even when my mind won’t slow down.

When my brain won’t be quiet, God still speaks. And sometimes, His voice is the one reminding me that I don’t have to fix myself before coming to Him.

Watch: DMX – “Lord Give Me a Sign”

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