“Lord, give me a sign…”

This morning, I woke up already making a list.
What I needed to finish. What I should start. What I’ve been avoiding.
My mind was moving fast, organized, but not centered. Productive, but not connected.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” (Proverbs 3:5–6)

If I’m honest, I wasn’t leaning on God this morning.
I was leaning on my planner. My systems. My need to feel in control.

And for a while, it felt normal. Even responsible.

But something felt… off.

Later, I talked to my mother. Just a regular conversation, nothing deep at first. But then she said something simple that stayed with me:

“God is our wise leader.”

Not just our comfort.
Not just our provider.
Our leader.

That shifted something in me.

Because a leader sets direction.
A leader determines priorities.
A leader sees what I can’t see.

And here I was, starting my day without checking in.

As a neurodivergent professional, I rely on structure. I’ve worked hard to build systems that help me function, focus, and follow through. My lists aren’t the problem. My routines aren’t the problem.

But when I let those things lead me… I start moving without alignment.

I start doing instead of being led.

And the truth is, my brain will always generate tasks.
It will always find something to fix, finish, or figure out.

But that doesn’t mean everything on my list is mine to carry today.

After that conversation, I paused. Not dramatically. Not perfectly. Just a quiet reset.

I didn’t throw away my list.
I just invited God into it.

And the day felt different, clearer.
Not slower, but steadier.

I’m learning that connection with God isn’t something I fit in after I get organized.

It’s where I begin.

Not because I’m trying to be more spiritual…
but because I need direction.

Because I’m not meant to lead myself.

Soul Whisper:
I don’t have to figure out the day before I follow God into it.
He’s not just walking with me. He’s leading me.
And today, that’s enough.

🎧 “Lord Give Me a Sign” – DMX

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